The cemetery

We finally stopped by the cemetery when we were home last week to put some flowers out for you. I know it’s the first time we’ve been back since we buried you. In all honesty, I’ve avoided it because I knew it would be so painful. Whenever I drive by I pretend you aren’t gone, not in that cemetery at all but just up the hill at the house. But visiting the house is hard too, I want to see you open the door again…to see you smiling and so happy to see us. I want one more of your bear hugs that lasts forever. I miss you so much and I think of you nearly every day and still seeing a picture of you brings me to tears. I just don’t know that my heart will ever be the same. Love you